gettin it together?

Going home can be stressful. Facing everyone, not wanting to be productive, and lazing around. The DAY conveniently divides itself into 3 times slots. 4 am to 2 pm - sleep, 3 pm to 7 pm - that one activity of the day, and 9 pm to 3 am - going out.

This then turns into a cycle. A cycle that is completely undesirable. But sadly, if you let go of even the tiniest thread holding the structure together, you will be left with such days. Well at least I was. I figured that when I was at home it just brought out a completely different person.

I know that this seems like a random transition but there is a way to get over any sort of bad feeling about ones routine. 

CHANGE IT!

Not tomorrow, Not next week, but today! 

Let go of a habit that you find pulls you down. change that one thing around. It makes a HUGE difference (more often then not).

once you make this change, you will find that you will have more time on your hands for starters. Your routine and your health may take a positive turn, and you might get a glimpse of a completely different type   of satisfaction that you can attain. I mean its not magic or completely noticeable, but i say its worth it. It is worth it because there is nothing to loose here. If you know for certain that what your changing in your day  is a transition from negative to positive you have absolutely nothing to loose, and theres no harm in trying it out. 

Day one has kinda kicked off for me from time to time, but of course there have been those other times when i have gone back to doing what i used to. 

So if you DO want to change something about your daily routine or find something new to do, you could start where I choose to start most of the time.

A small world

I had always thought that my ideas were new, no one had heard of them, no one knew of such things. As i grew up I saw how much already existed. I saw my thoughts pour out in the form of brands, and labels. Still, i never gave thought to how this had happened...

(So let me put down the two ways i interpret this idea

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I dont have a title for this because its about something that just took place. My grandfather just passed away. I couldn't tell you how i feel about it if you asked me right now, because i dunno myself.

When the greater cycle of life and death kicks in, its really hard to get back to 'our' personal worlds. It makes me feel like none of what I do really matters at the end of the day. I am born, I exist, I die. Then that 'I' does not exist anymore.

Its funny that we are able to blind ourselves from the rawness and realness of nature and everything around us.
The nature of nature. The way things work, with or without us. We are not to blame for making sure we dont think about death every morning. But sometimes when it hits us pretty close it takes time to figure thaat part of our life out, and then come back to this one.

All this "stuff" is real stuff. As much as I would like it to be bull shit, its not. But that does not mean that we have to be sad about the way things turn out. Of course there is loss, we feel loss, we mourn, but it comes to an end because we have and will always know that such events, such things like birth and death are pretty much inevitable. We come to a point where we realize that we knew this day would come so if we could accept it then, then sure as hell we can accept it now. This makes us strong i guess. It gives me a hand at least. And as long as it puts even a little smirk on my face, fabrication, belief, or wtv is it that we use to help us through our part in this cycle is a good thing.


(you might find that there is no exact point in this entry - its a wild field, you can't blame me for trying to venture into it)

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